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Monica P. Collins

http://dayofanadder.blogspot.com/   and   http://adhdcodersunite.blogspot.com/

A member of stiletto feminism...

'We are all here to do what we are all here to do.  I'm interested in ... the future ... and the only way to get there is together.' - The Oracle (Matrix Reloaded)

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From: Monica Collins

Sent: Monday, February 27, 2012 8:12 AM

To: Robert Duvc Morgan

I think that we really need to take couple's counseling.  I think we have passed the point of worrying about others knowing our business.  We shared our 'business' in front of a lot of strangers at Kroger yesterday, so much so that people got nervous enough to have a cop called (although I'm sure that your grabbing my t-shirt helped that along).  We have got to do this better or we may one day get to the point where cops have to be called because one of us has hurt or killed each other.  I know that you like to 'finish' a conversation/argument to its conclusion, however all that does is push us further and further into the argument, so much so that we wind up screaming at each other, and almost getting physical with each other.  We can't keep that up.  We should really go to our respective corners until each of us calms down enough to now yell at each other.  I get aggravated because you are talking harshly at me, as though only your way is the right way, making me feel like a child again; I raise my voice; you consider that yelling and start yelling back, which makes you angrier; and it continues to escalate.  We can't do this anymore, otherwise we will get to the point where we will hate each other.  And not come back from it.  If anything, both of us needs to take a couple on anxiety pills, then talk.

I really think that we have to do something that you really don't care for: seeing a nutritionist.  Before you say that you don't have the money for it, I will pay for it.  For the last few years, I have watched you have to reduce the foods that you can eat, almost to nothing.  I've also watched you go back and forth on what foods you can eat.  You'll say  that you just discovered that you are not supposed to be eating something.  Later on, you discover that it was actually ok to be eating said item.  You have done this numerous times.  Meanwhile, you are getting weaker because you 'supposedly' can only eat certain things.  It's time to get help with this.  You cannot, and should not, continue to do this all alone.

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Monica P. Collins

http://dayofanadder.blogspot.com/   and   http://adhdcodersunite.blogspot.com/

A member of stiletto feminism...

'We are all here to do what we are all here to do.  I'm interested in ... the future ... and the only way to get there is together.' - The Oracle (Matrix Reloaded)

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Duv's state of mine right now

Duv is depressed right now. Seems he's upset over what happened over this weekend, especially over Sunday. He's upset because He dieing from his kidney fairure, which is less then one kidney right now. When he is felling better, de doesn't concentrate so much on that, only trying to make improvements on his life expectancy.

It doesn't help that his cousin died last week. He was in nearly the same straights as Duv was. He fell into a coma and his immediate family pulled the plug ane let him die. That really upset him because he believes that his family didn't do enought to save him. He had been turned away since he was 18. His mother died and his father pull all of his kids out, even though his sun had diabetes. He had no where to go and lived hand to mough. His family members turned him away. Even Duv feels guilty over his. His sister had talked him into coming down here, but her husband didn't want his him so she sent him to use to let his stay awhile. When his plans for his sister, Duv got upset that he couldn't convice him to come up with plans. He had a job lined up in Fort Worth but he made no effort to get these. In fact, he had seemed like he had given up hope. When he had found him in another state, he had collapsed and the person that he was living with put him in the hospital. My person opposition was that his family didn't want to take on the responsibly of taking on his health issues, so they abandoned his by letting him die.

He's feeling bad about a lot of things right now, and I see no way go get his out of it.

A serious argument

Thanks …

Monica P. Collins

http://dayofanadder.blogspot.com/   and   http://adhdcodersunite.blogspot.com/

A member of stiletto feminism...

'We are all here to do what we are all here to do.  I'm interested in ... the future ... and the only way to get there is together.' - The Oracle (Matrix Reloaded)

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From: Monica Collins

Sent: Sunday, February 26, 2012 10:58 PM

To: Morgan Robert Duvc

I again find myself in the position of apologizing some for something I've done, something I said in anger.  Even though I do not know what it was that I had said to hurt you again, I'm sure it was something that I said out of anger, so I apologize.  I was angry because, like most females, I expected my man to see that I was upset over something, to figure it out and to offer to help.  Like every other female out there (at least I think so), we hope that those in our lives can figure us out and offer help.  It does not help that I don't ask for help on a good day, let alone when I'm upset about something.  I most especially don't like to ask for things from you, because many times in the past you have refused to help.  Because that is somewhat painful, I refrain from asking.  If I had been thinking straight, I would have just left the things in the car, gone in to shower then left.  That would have kept me from being aggraviated and saying things in anger.

I got angry today because I feel somewhat disrespected when I am coached on how I drive, most especially when I have not asked for the coaching.  I feel like I am not trusted to bring the vehicle, and the people in said vehicle, home in one piece.  I feel like I'm being treated like a child.  It's in times like these that I wish that I had never told you about my maladies, because I feel like you are spending your days compensating for them for me, instead of me learning to work with them.

I am sure that we are not the first people to have arguments in front of Kroger and we will not be the last.  As you said, we will live this down.  As much as there is turnover there, it should not take all that long.  The next time that we have an argument starting, I will head home.

Monica P. Collins

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'The great secret is not the variety of life, but the variety of us.'  L'Waxana Troi (Star Trek Next Generation)

Today -- so far

Today, I've started cleaning my bathroom, clearing off the vanity, throwing out the little containers that I drop my earrings into because I don't want to put them away. I collected up all of the extraneous items that had accumulated on it, like buttons from new clothes that needed to be put away into my button containers; I never have them around when I lose the buttons anyway lol. I cleaned out the utility closet. Lots of little things in there needed to be cleaned, like getting rid of the shoe box that had gotten soaked, replacing it with a plastic one. Getting rid of all of the whatnot that could be thrown out, I actually gained some shelf space. I cleaned off all of the items that had accumulated on the dryer. I even added an item to the collection for the silent auction: a ironing board cover that pulled more heat from the iron, promoting better ironing. I started the washing of my bed covers, since Charcoal has yet again marked them to keep the other cats from sleeping near me lol, though it does little good lol.

I still have to finish cleaning the bathroom and clean out the cat boxes.

Ate too much at lunch

Tom asked if I wanted to go to lunch with him and Jeff. I had brought my lunch but decided to get something small and eat with them, taking my salad with me as well. I got a Whopper Jr combo meal. By the time I finished the fries, which I always eat first, I was close to full. Eating the burger had me just past full. I ate a few bites of my cucumber/tomato salad, but of course could not finish it. I decided to eat it later in the day. Already more than full, I just had a Hershey's bar here at my desk, which I didn't need since I was full. I should have just eaten the salad and not buy anything.

Valentine's Day

While at Whole Foods, today, I bought myself a fruit-covered torte, along with some sushi.  Before I left work, I bought two bottles of moscato wine and some candy bars that were on sale, leaving all but one at work.  I don't have a Valentine-giving boyfriend, so I don't expect to receive much by Tuesday.  I do hate that.  I never got what I wanted to get for Valentine's Day from my ex either.  Even though that became 'my day' to do things, because of my taking him out for lunch a couple of years in a row, I still wanted to get something from him, other than some candy.

Oops, I did it again

Once again, I have done it. I borrowed money that was not mine to borrow, $40. I had planned on putting that back from my grocery money. I also have to set aside $100 for my dart van pool. That is $25 extra I have and my meds money. I have enough extra pills to get through the next two weeks, so I can order them then, again with my free $25 and some grocery money. I am going to find myself in this temptation state every week. I really hope that I don't find myself repeat this each week. I don't have the money to keep repairing these situations.

Less weight

Early this week, I moved all the stuff in my rolling work bag and my other bag with my lunch, etc to one large bag.  Heavy, just like the others, however all in one bag.  Today, I decided to leave some items at work, like my passport drives, and my tablets keyboard.  I don't use these items at home so there is no point in lugging them back and forth.

I hate that I have to do this

I bought some bottles of Gallo wine bottles that Kroger had marked down, I assume to the fact that they had sat on the shelves too long. It hit me to grab up the bottle holders that they had put into the bins, so that I could make a list of the Gallo items that I like and dislike.

I really dislike that I have to make a list like that. I seem to only remember a couple that I like, maybe the same that I dislike. It really blew my mind when I had to ask my then estranged husband the list of wines that I like, thinking it was only a handful, and then being informed that it was about a dozen.

(big sigh) I really hate that ....