Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The answer to the question you frequently ask me

From Evernote:

The answer to the question you frequently ask me

Yesterday, or maybe Sunday, you asked me why I frequently go on the defensive when something is asked of or said to me.  I meant to give you an answer yesterday and never got around to it.  

A good deal of people's actions and thinking patterns are formed within the first couple of decades of his/her life: a woman has weight issues in adulthood because of being taunted throughout childhood and adolescence; a serial killer has a hatred of women because of being tormented by his mother, or one filled with disdain is mean to the women he gets with; a man eats the same breakfast everyday because of his eating it in childhood (like in the current Cheerios commercial).  Because of questioning of peers and family that I've received through the years, I was more than frequently seen as being wrong about some subject or other (I have by now, by my maybe having remembered or done something incorrectly, or not at all, come to realize that some of those instances were probably justified, however it doesn't leave one feeling any better.  After all, who would feel good over say having to apologize to someone over not having paid that person back when in your mind you could have sworn you did.)  I'm sure it also explains why I get so adamant when I do happen to be right: I'd rather go through the 'pushiness' to prove myself right than to again be seen as wrong than to again have the disappointing feelings felt all around by everyone, most especially myself.

I've just learned to throw the reasons for the actions out there before despairing thoughts are formed by the others and statements are made to me, which would spurn on my sensitivity and anxiety.  Those actions are now a part of me, like having a love of pomegranates, that have to be mentally controlled by me (only the former, not the latter) and, at the same time, the actions are automatically turned to by my brain.  I guess you could say they have become a part of my 'fight or flight' processing and I don't know how easy it is supposed to be to override or change.



On another note, the article below covers things that have affected me through the years.  Maybe it is only ADHD with Bipolar attached to it.  Through the years, it seems that Lithium has had some effect on me, however not a lot.  If I were only ADHD, that may explain why.  

These are my comments to the six items from the article:
1) These conditions didn't start up at the end of my school years.  Instead, I've dealt with them all of my life.  
2) The symptoms plague me throughout my day.  
3) This is what I've been saying about how things can get into my brain: strong emotional events. This item also relates to the subject of this email.
4) Even though, according to the DSM, one can be only manic, as opposed to both manic and depressive (at least in the DSM IV that Brophy and I looked in), this describes what I've had happen all of my life.  Severely sad things can take hours to days for me to get over, and to add insult to injury, the OCD keeps me obsessing over said subject.  Minor fustrations can take far less time though.  
5) See #4. 
6) It's interesting that, of the three family members that live with this, I seem to be the only one that is affected by all of the six items listed.  For example, my mother has never known what to make of my leg bouncing.  I think that she thought that I did it on purpose.



http://www.additudemag.com/adhd/article/2511.html

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

The answer to the question you frequently ask me

From Evernote:

The answer to the question you frequently ask me

Yesterday, or maybe Sunday, you asked me why I frequently go on the defensive when something is asked of or said to me.  I meant to give you an answer yesterday and never got around to it.  

A good deal of people's actions and thinking patterns are formed within the first couple of decades of his/her life: a woman has weight issues in adulthood because of being taunted throughout childhood and adolescence; a serial killer has a hatred of women because of being tormented by his mother, or one filled with disdain is mean to the women he gets with; a man eats the same breakfast everyday because of his eating it in childhood (like in the current Cheerios commercial).  Because of questioning of peers and family that I've received through the years, I was more than frequently seen as being wrong about some subject or other (I have by now, by my maybe having remembered or done something incorrectly, or not at all, come to realize that some of those instances were probably justified, however it doesn't leave one feeling any better.  After all, who would feel good over say having to apologize to someone over not having paid that person back when in your mind you could have sworn you did.)  I'm sure it also explains why I get so adamant when I do happen to be right: I'd rather go through the 'pushiness' to prove myself right than to again be seen as wrong than to again have the disappointing feelings felt all around by everyone, most especially myself.

I've just learned to throw the reasons for the actions out there before despairing thoughts are formed by the others and statements are made to me, which would spurn on my sensitivity and anxiety.  Those actions are now a part of me, like having a love of pomegranates, that have to be mentally controlled by me (only the former, not the latter) and, at the same time, the actions are automatically turned to by my brain.  I guess you could say they have become a part of my 'fight or flight' processing and I don't know how easy it is supposed to be to override or change.



On another note, the article below covers things that have affected me through the years.  Maybe it is only ADHD with Bipolar attached to it.  Through the years, it seems that Lithium has had some effect on me, however not a lot.  If I were only ADHD, that may explain why.  

These are my comments to the six items from the article:
1) These conditions didn't start up at the end of my school years.  Instead, I've dealt with them all of my life.  
2) The symptoms plague me throughout my day.  
3) This is what I've been saying about how things can get into my brain: strong emotional events. This item also relates to the subject of this email.
4) Even though, according to the DSM, one can be only manic, as opposed to both manic and depressive (at least in the DSM IV that Brophy and I looked in), this describes what I've had happen all of my life.  Severely sad things can take hours to days for me to get over, and to add insult to injury, the OCD keeps me obsessing over said subject.  Minor fustrations can take far less time though.  
5) See #4. 
6) It's interesting that, of the three family members that live with this, I seem to be the only one that is affected by all of the six items listed.  For example, my mother has never known what to make of my leg bouncing.  I think that she thought that I did it on purpose.



http://www.additudemag.com/adhd/article/2511.html

Friday, July 19, 2013

A Conversation

I think that I missed the crux of the conversation below.  The important thing is not the 'logic' issue, although I could see how it could be seen it that way, considering I'm using a passive-aggressive way to indicate I wish to receive notifications back from people.  There are persuasive ways to accomplish that.  The actual point, to my way of thinking, is the fact that I feel the need to share all of my thoughts.  Part of that is due to the thing I have about thinking outside of my head; I forget the actual name for it, the 'outside' thinking of childhood not switching completely to 'inside' thinking.  I do that very frequently, even when I'm alone.  I do it hardly at all in the mornings, and then it builds up as the day wears on and my mania builds up.  Because of it, I often find myself in the position of having to repeat, in a louder and clearer voice, what was only supposed to be a thought in my head and not meant to be heard in the first place.  The other part has more to do with sharing my thoughts with others, due to mania's impulsiveness.  

I edit what I say to people more when I don't know them very well, as though I were putting on an act, the role being acting like a regular linear thinker.  At those times, I am trying to keep a tight rein on the mania, and there are many an occasion where it slips.  The best example would be when playing volleyball at work picnics.  Since I can only serve, I'll often switch out with someone.  And, since I'm a lefty serving to the wrong corner, I have to concentrate (control the impulsiveness) a lot to get the ball to go where it needs to.  I can land it just inside of the far right back corner, maybe 5-6 times in a row, until the excitement gets away and I have less control, and really screw up a serve.  The better I know someone, the less I do it, controlling the mania.  I'm sure that happens because I am not being cautious, not trying to make sure that I don't come off as 'wrong' to someone that doesn't know me well.

So, now, do I go back to 'watching my actions', around everyone, like I would frequently do in the past?  Situations like emails are somewhat easy: edit, edit, edit, instead of just edit.  That's harder to do live, since you are expected to respond pretty quickly and it takes a moment to edit within the confines of the brain.  
Do I spend a good deal of my time curbing my words?  Decisions, decisions...
 
From: Collins, Monica P.
Sent: Thursday, July 11, 2013 7:24 PM
To: 'Tracey Richardson'
Subject: RE: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

O.
Thanks…

Monica Collins
Appl Sys Prog Analyst I
Information Technology Directorate
Army & Air Force Exchange Service
214-312-2353 
Visit our online store! www.shopmyexchange.com

From: Tracey Richardson [mailto:csrich47@hotmail.com]
Sent: Thursday, July 11, 2013 4:55 PM
To: Collins, Monica P.
Subject: Re: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

It's that although you think you're making sense, and BTW you don't have to explain things to me, the way you get from point A to point D often astounds me. I don't say anything to you about it because you usually have some convoluted explanation, like this one. But the logic is not always straight logic - it's well, convoluted.

Tracey Richardson 
Sent from my iPhone

On Jul 11, 2013, at 10:42 AM, "Collins, Monica P." <collinsm@aafes.com> wrote:
I'm not sure how I should take that.  However, I got that 'logic' from one of the guys that works here.  He explained the 'guy's way of thinking'.  I had asked if they could read over something-or-other, and I never heard back from anyone.  He explained that the 'no contact' was a guy's way – at least that particular guy that I was speaking with – of 'saying' it was ok.  So I said something like 'so, I have to actually say 'send back a yes or a no' to which he said yup.  So that's why I actually say 'awaiting a reply' now.  Is it just me that missing the concept?  I wouldn't think so; however I'm not a guy.

Thanks…

Monica Collins
Appl Sys Prog Analyst I
Information Technology Directorate
Army & Air Force Exchange Service
214-312-2353 
Visit our online store! www.shopmyexchange.com

From: Tracey Richardson [mailto:csrich47@hotmail.com]
Sent: Thursday, July 11, 2013 9:59 AM
To: Collins, Monica P.
Subject: RE: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

Oh.  Your logic astounds me.

Tracey Richardson
(469)585-6844
Author – Florestine (2012)
Tomorrow Is Another Day (2012)
Laura! (April, 2013)
All That I Have to Give (scheduled for release in late 2013)

From: Collins, Monica P. [mailto:collinsm@aafes.com]
Sent: Thursday, July 11, 2013 7:17 AM
To: Tracey Richardson
Subject: RE: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

Oops, sorry, nothing, you can ignore that.  I have two signatures, the second reply one with that.  I work with guys.  Unless you specifically say that you expect a reply back, you more often than not won't get one when you actually wanted/expected some feedback.  I usually chop it off when I don't need it, however upon occasion – thinking about the email itself, trying to leave, etc. – I miss it.
Thanks…

Monica Collins
Appl Sys Prog Analyst I
Information Technology Directorate
Army & Air Force Exchange Service
214-312-2353 
Visit our online store! www.shopmyexchange.com

From: Tracey Richardson [mailto:csrich47@hotmail.com]
Sent: Wednesday, July 10, 2013 11:16 PM
To: Collins, Monica P.
Subject: Re: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

Awaiting my reply on what?

Tracey Richardson 
Sent from my iPhone

On Jul 10, 2013, at 4:58 PM, "Collins, Monica P." <collinsm@aafes.com> wrote:
Okey dokey.
Awaiting your reply…
Thanks…

Monica Collins
Appl Sys Prog Analyst I
Information Technology Directorate
Army & Air Force Exchange Service
214-312-2353 
Visit our online store! www.shopmyexchange.com

From: Tracey Richardson [mailto:csrich47@hotmail.com]
Sent: Wednesday, July 10, 2013 4:41 PM
To: Collins, Monica P.
Subject: Re: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

Nope. My email is just fine. Hated losing my AT&T email address but got tired of them disconnecting my phone when I am a day late with the payment.

Tracey Richardson 
Sent from my iPhone

On Jul 9, 2013, at 2:33 PM, "Collins, Monica P." <collinsm@aafes.com> wrote:
I didn't have this email in my work address book.  I have at least three email addresses for you – including the IRS one, which I can't delete from my phone because it is stored in your Facebook or some such other account.  Some years back, you had asked me why I used web-based Hotmail instead of an ISP one.  All of these numerous ISP ones, with mail trapped on the server that is a bitch to move, if you can move it at all – is the very reason why I do.  You may or may not know this, but Microsoft has kind of folded Hotmail under its all-encompassing wing, making it a part of Outlook.com.  I've wanted a new email address for years, since people get thrown off with the underscores, and I didn't want to make all of the changes necessary.  I don't know/remember if Hotmail allowed you to do this, but Outlook.com allows you to set aliases.  That's why you've been seeing monica.collins@outlook.com lately.  I mention it because I figured that you may wish to set some up, such as for your book dealings, or even one for PACE.  You could use an actual name instead, which would look much prettier and you wouldn't be telling your birth year to those that don't need to know it.  I have the same problem with my Gmail account.  I need to check and see if they also have one; I know that Yahoo doesn't and that one is just a cryptic. 
Thanks…

Monica Collins
Appl Sys Prog Analyst I
Information Technology Directorate
Army & Air Force Exchange Service
214-312-2353 
Visit our online store! www.shopmyexchange.com

From: Collins, Monica P.
Sent: Tuesday, July 02, 2013 3:02 PM
To: Tracey Richardson (csrich1947@att.net); Sharon Harvey (work); Sharon Harvey (home); Lisa Wiley (home); Lisa Wiley (work); Jamila Richardson (home); Jamila Richardson (Jamila.Richardson@tekzenit.com)
Cc: Robert Morgan (home)
Subject: FW: Top 100 Retailers STORES.org.htm

#43 out of 100 is not bad, not bad at all.

Thanks…

Monica Collins
Appl Sys Prog Analyst I
Information Technology Directorate
Army & Air Force Exchange Service
214-312-2353 
Visit our online store! www.shopmyexchange.com

From:

Just in case you haven't seen yet – we're ranked #43.Skip to Main Content
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<image002.gif>Top 100 Retailers
Digital commerce generates headlines, but bricks-and-mortar remain the foundation of the nation's retail power players
From Jul 2013 | By David P. Schulz | Tags: Cover Story, Top Retailers Lists
T he retail industry is a many-splintered thing, with the variations clearly showcased in the annual STORES Top 100 Retailers report.
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Click on chart to see a sortable list of the Top 100 Retailers.


In this digital age, it seems remarkable that bricks-and-mortar retailers have displayed such staying power. But only two truly pure-play online merchants appear in STORES magazine's annual report on the nation's Top 100 Retailers, and it just may be that traditional retailers do all the heavy lifting when it comes to pushing goods through the consumer pipeline.
Amazon.com is the ever-growing 800-lb. e-commerce gorilla and fledglings like Warby Parker are the merchants du jour among the Twittering classes. Most people, however, still do the bulk of their shopping at Walmart, Target, Macy's and lots of supermarkets and home improvement chain stores. Truth is, more than 15 years into the dot-com revolution, online transactions account for less than 15 percent of total retail sales.
For example, five Top 100 large-format value retailers — Wal-Mart (including Sam's Club), Target, Costco Wholesale, Meijer and BJ's Wholesale — collectively generate nearly half a trillion dollars in annual sales. In contrast, Amazon.com and Dell Direct, the pure e-commerce retailers among the Top 100, posted combined U.S. sales of $38.8 billion.
In a year that saw collective sales decline 1 percent, the department stores in the Top 100 still generated average sales of $23.3 billion in 2012. Top 100 supermarkets were nearly as strong, averaging $21.2 billion in 2012 sales.
This brawny show of retail sales does not detract from what Amazon is and what it does best. As it gobbles up consumer dollars, leaving whole chains of venerable retailers as well as mom-and-pop e-commerce startups in its wake, the brainchild of Jeff Bezos aspires to be more than a retailer and more than a provider of electronic content.
Amazon dominates the world of e-commerce sales, estimated at $259 billion in 2013; that's a healthy 14.8 percent year-over-year gain, according to eMarketer. Amazon's share is estimated to be 15.4 percent of the entire e-commerce pie — and 28 percent of the 500 biggest e-commerce players, according to Internet Retailer. What's more, eMarketer says Amazon's ad revenues are forecast to increase 37 percent to $835 million this year.
Amazon's big moves
In the past, Amazon's gaudy quarterly growth figures were dismissed in some quarters as representing relatively small amounts of real dollars. Not so anymore, says Kantar Research's Anne Zybowski, who points out that Amazon has been adding sales at a faster rate and by a greater amount.
Zybowski, vice president of retail insights at Kantar, says Amazon added about $7 billion more in sales since 2010 than Wal-Mart, and should keep pace with or outperform Wal-Mart over the next five years.
Amazon is doing many things you would expect a retailer to do, from spending money building warehouses to developing new products for its house-brand of electronic devices — and creating new content for those devices. But non-retail Amazon is heavily involved as virtual landlord for all the merchants in its Marketplace online shopping mall and is continually upgrading and expanding its technology-for-hire Web Services business.
Amazon also moved more heavily into the drug store space with the launch of Amazon.com/50ActiveLiving, a virtual store filled with health, wellness, beauty and personal care products aimed at consumers 50 and older.
Earlier this year, Amazon purchased the Goodreads book-selling web operation and launched a memorabilia store called Entertainment Collectibles with merchandise inspired by movies, television shows and celebrities. In a more recent deal with Viacom, Amazon won the exclusive right to stream Nickelodeon programs, including such shows as "Dora the Explorer" and "SpongeBob SquarePants."
After years of testing its AmazonFresh delivery service in its home market of Seattle, Amazon is expanding in the grocery arena: The delivery concept debuted in Los Angeles last month, offering products from butchers, fishmongers, greengrocers and other merchants.
Points of differentiation
Amazon's Prime service, in existence since 2005 and offering such perks as free two-day shipping on most orders and access to Amazon Instant on-demand videos, has long been a draw. Yet according to Complete Blog, Prime customers are willing to pay for shipping on 39 percent of their orders, which indicates that Prime membership's primary advantage is often ignored.
The opacity surrounding whether a customer is actually purchasing from Amazon or a third-party merchant using Amazon's Marketplace platform means there is virtually no seller-buyer relations beyond the transaction. Such practice extends to eBay, Google and other online exchanges and virtual malls, where shoppers don't seem to know that eBay and Google aren't selling the goods being purchased.
E-commerce platform providers are attempting to blur the lines and connect directly with consumers. eBay and Kate Spade recently partnered on pop-up stores in New York City featuring a touchscreen storefront window, combining eBay's mobile shopping expertise with its PayPal payment program in a bricks-and-mortar location.
While the distinctions among and between e-commerce platforms and physical stores can be significant, the consumer makes use of any and all channels available, suggests Zybowski. "It's not about online or off-line, it's about multi-channel," she says, adding that "multi-channel means more than a physical store with a website."
Digital commerce has three components, Zybowski explains: traditional desktop or laptop computer-based online shopping; tablet-based e-commerce; and mobile commerce using smartphones and other communications devices.
"M-commerce is not about to plateau. It will continue to grow because consumers use their phones" to compare prices, navigate stores and for real-time social purchase consulting, in addition to making purchases, she says. "It really is a different type of digital commerce from computer-based and even tablet-based."
Other than Amazon.com and Dell, which shed its physical retail connections, there are no "pure" e-commerce businesses large enough to qualify for the Top 100 Retailers. (Non-store retailer QVC is not considered a "pure-play" e-commerce retailer due to its shop-at-home broadcast component.) Zybowski attributes that, at least in part, to the acquisition activity of traditional store-based retailers like Wal-Mart and Target as they grow their own e-commerce businesses. A more pertinent example was the move made last year by TJX, which spent $200 million to acquire Wyoming-based online merchant Sierra Trading Post.
Some online merchants like Overstock.com and Newegg.com might gain such scale, but many growing online retailers have also begun opening bricks-and-mortar stores, including Bonobos, Warby Parker and Piperlime.
Merchants conversant with retailing in the physical world choose to emphasize their store-built brands to make a point of differentiation. Wal-Mart, Macy's, Walgreens and a lot of other bricks-and-mortar operators are using their stores as aids to selling goods in whatever channel customers choose to shop, with the reassuring notion that "You know where you can find us if your Internet connection goes down."
Building in-store and online
Wal-Mart has been one of the busiest of the store-based retailers promoting technology. Many of the innovations come from @Walmart Labs, the San Bruno, Calif., subsidiary the Bentonville behemoth established to tap into Silicon Valley resources.
Wal-Mart expects to ring up about $9 billion in e-commerce sales this year — only about 2 percent of its worldwide volume, but roughly one-sixth of Amazon's worldwide retail sales.
One of the tools developed by @Walmart Labs is the proprietary search engine Polaris, which is "on par or even slightly better than Amazon," according to Matt Nemer, senior analyst at Wells Fargo Securities. The heart of Wal-Mart's e-commerce program is the site-to-store service launched six years ago and tinkered with ever since, where shoppers pick up orders at a Walmart store and don't have to pay any shipping charges.
Walmart has also unveiled an app, Scan & Go, which enables users to scan and bag merchandise and pay at a self-checkout kiosk after presenting the data from their phones. Some 10 percent of Walmart's U.S. stores offer the service; there has been no decision on whether to expand the pilot program as yet, although Wal-Mart spokesman Ravi Jariwala did say that the company was ready to test "mobile coupons and mobile gift cards that can be used as part of that Scan & Go experience."
Wal-Mart "will continue to invest not only in how the customer wants to shop but how they want to receive the merchandise," says CFO Charles Holley. "[W]e think we are competing very well from where we started from. We have a lot of work to do to make sure we are more efficient in getting the products to the consumers, but we feel like we have the tools to go do that."
By many measures, Macy's is the second-largest traditional retailer in terms of e-commerce volume, a position upon which it seeks to keep building.
"We are accelerating progress in omni-channel strategies at Macy's and Bloomingdale's to bring together our efforts in stores, online and mobile in a manner that satisfies emerging shopping patterns and capitalizes on the strength of our inventory regardless of where the customer demand occurs," Terry J. Lundgren, chairman, president and CEO of Macy's, told shareholders in February. "And we are engaging shoppers in a manner that engenders loyalty and builds our business with each individual customer."
Last year, sales exploded at Macys.com and Bloomingdales.com, jumping 41 percent for all of 2012 and 47.7 percent in the holiday-season fourth quarter. The company said online sales positively affected its same-store sales for the year by 2.2 percentage points.
Even so, Macy's is not cutting back on store-based retailing: In fact, it will spend hundreds of millions of dollars on its Herald Square flagship alone. At more than one million sq. ft. of selling space and billed as "The World's Largest Store," parts of the multi-building facility date back to 1902. In June 2013, Macy's unveiled the second phase of a series of renovations that it says will be completed by this year's holiday selling season. For the first time, windows along Seventh Avenue will showcase views into the store, and the Seventh Avenue and Broadway buildings will be linked at the mezzanine level as the mezzanine, main and second floors are remodeled.
Convenience, price stability
Other bricks-and-mortar retailers are also looking to exploit their inherent advantages. Convenience is certainly one of them — meaning not just that the store is right around the corner, but also that the items come home when they are purchased.
For some retailers, the convenience message includes being part of the community. This is particularly true of independent stores grouped together under a national banner. A number of such alliances are large enough to rank among the Top 100 Retailers, including Health Mart and Good Neighbor in the retail pharmacy/drug store arena and True Value and Ace in the hardware/home improvement segment.
Another point of emphasis in combating the eBay and Amazon Marketplace mentalities is price stability — one of the features that first gave rise to chains selling everything from groceries to housewares and apparel to office supplies. If something advertised in the morning paper was featured at $19.99, the consumer knew that would be the price when she walked into the store. In the algorithm-ruled world of e-commerce, such price stability can no longer be taken for granted.
Face-to-face human interaction can also be used to stores' advantage, whether it is Nordstrom's renowned customer service, do-it-yourself project advice at The Home Depot or the personal shoppers' assistance at any number of apparel stores. Target has moved in this direction by introducing consultants at 200 locations this summer.
"In an often crowded and sometimes daunting marketplace, Target's Beauty Concierge program ensures that guests receive the friendly, personalized counsel they need to purchase their favorite beauty products at affordable prices," says Bryan Everett, a Target senior vice president.

Monday, June 10, 2013

I don't believe that I've just done this!!

I have been so gung ho about recreating all of the databases that did not get moved over to my new phone from the old one, to the point of obsession.  I've had other stuff to do, yet I've had to move this small amount of data over.  I just got to the next to last one and just realized, not even 10 minutes ago, that some of these precious databases could have been put into Evernote.  I created these before I started using Evernote to keep all of my paperwork.  A couple of these should stay, like my web logins, but a few of them, maybe three or four, can go there, since they pretty much don't change and don't need to be readily available.  Jeez.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

I was very bad

I had mentioned to Duv about getting a loan from the credit union and he had suggested that I shouldn't get it but figured that I would anyway.  I did but said that I didn't.  Now, he's thinking that we might want to go ahead and get it to work on the POS.  I'm gonna lose my 'atta boy I got, the 'I'm proud of you'.  (sigh).

Friday, April 12, 2013

A Modicum

I've still only done a modicum of work.

Over an hour

Over an hour has passed and I'm just now getting started with work.  One of the numerous reasons that I never have enough time.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

I ate too much again

I just ate five scrambled eggs a bit ago.  My stomach is still overly full.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Not too bad... but

I got a few of my tasks done today: a load of dishes, towels.  I even got a couple of things picked up in the workroom.  Now, the bad side of that is that I've gone two days w/o mania pills.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Finally!

I finally got my butt up this morning at 4:30 and rode in the vanpool.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Too much

I have eaten too much again.  A group here had a food thing and offered the rest to the rest of the department.  Being that I saw the email an hour and a half after the email, I felt free to get more than I should have, especially since one of my favorites was there.  I got the last four of the large tortilla roll-ups that were there, along with some chicken and a few scoops of a pasta dish.  The tortillas alone filled me, which should have stopped me, however I dived into the rest.