OMG, this is the PERFECT example of me!!!

Apologizing for Overreactions to Emotional Situations | Bipolar Burble Blog | Natasha Tracy:



'via Blog this'

What I'm Thinking About

This list is from last Thursday:

1. Sorting through apps, trying to decide which works the best, updating GTasks and GKeep
2. Sorting through apps, trying to decide which works the best at note-taking
3. Wanting to stop and plug in all of my drives so that I can watch or listen to something
4. Taking all of these supplements that my boyfriend has me taking
5. Checking out Craigslist for some group that I can join
6. Thinking that I haven't had enough alcohol
7. Trying to finish this project that I've already been asked about and have spent very little time doing.
8. How many typing errors I've made.  I reread two emails that I sent yesterday and they are jacked up.  It pisses me because I write better than that.
9. Concern that the guy that I'm interested in has lost interest.  Or worse yet, never had interest to begin with.
10. Answering emails from the guy that colaborating with on his focusme project.

What I should be thinking about: #7 from above

What do they think?

I always wonder what people think when I am being corrected by a boss.  They are more than likely not listening or paying attention, however I always think that they are.  Too many years of having people hear things and making fun of it.  Kids saying hurtful things seems to be impossible to ignore.  And heaven help those of us that are also sensitive to things.  It seems to that we are always looking at every situation as something that will hurt.

M&M's

Eating M&M's is somewhat interesting when you have OCD.  Every color must be paired up and I absolutely dislike when I end with either a loner or a mismatched pair.

Easter Sunday

I believe that I spent the whole day with a buzz.  No, I'm sure that I did.

This is how bad I am about anxiety

So, my mother invited us to Easter dinner.  I never answered the text.  I didn't wish to go however I hated having to lie.  My phone keeps all of my notifications listed until I actually get rid of them.  Hell, even my Pre 3 and even 2 did the same thing.  I just got to the point where I would kind of ignore them.  That's procrastination, with a dash of anxiety.

Death of another credit card

I just used the last $4 on one of my fat credit cards to buy some beer.  Since I'm riding the bus,  I can't open one of the cans now and drink it down.  In fact, I've had to go a number of days without anything, until I finally sat down and started checking card balances. And of course I was trying to do too many things before I had to go and catch the bus.  And of course stop by the store for that beer.