OK, where was I going?

I really dislike that this happens so frequently: I was headed to set up a test notification from my Toodledo account to Google calendar.  When I pulled up the browser, Newser was on top so I decided to read about the 'Liz and Dick' movie from the night before, and I got a bit caught up in the article; the movie was a train-wreck (to be expected since LiLo was in it) and the listed Tweets was captivating.  After I finished, I had to actually think about where I was originally headed, and it took me some seconds to remember that I was headed to GCal.  It wasn't until a few moments ago that I remember that I was also wanting to go to Toodledo, and the reason that I was going there in the first place.

Wednesday

I 'gave' my work bag away, because I left my car unlocked, with the windows open in the Wal-mart parking lot. My netbook and my Touchpad keyboard were in the bag, however I'm not even upset about it.  I would be if my TB Passport drives were in there.  

This is good, because I don't need to be taking it to work anyway.  It's too easy to let it distract me.  The same goes for the Touchpad keyboard.  Having to use the pop-up screen keyboard will make me more mindful of any time I'm spending on it.

I found another netbook on Craig's List yesterday.  It's close to what I had, which is not bad, and only 2 years old.  And, it's only $150, which is pretty good.  Getting it still gives me a portable PC; I really don't need to have the power of a full-blown laptop, since I'm only planning on loading the Wild Ginger software on it.  However, I have already told Duv that I will not be taking it to work and that he has permission to say something to me if I do.

Water retention: Are there any natural diuretics? - MayoClinic.com

Water retention: Are there any natural diuretics? - MayoClinic.com:

Question

Water retention: Are there any natural diuretics?

Can natural diuretics reduce water retention and help with weight loss?

Answer

from Katherine Zeratsky, R.D., L.D.

Some herbs and dietary supplements, such as dandelion, ginger and juniper, may have a diuretic effect that can help with water retention. But proceed with caution before you take anything.

First, water retention can be caused by a number of medical conditions and some medications. So it's important to talk to your doctor about possible causes of water retention before trying to treat it yourself. Second, some herbs and supplements can worsen medical problems you have or interact with medications you take.

In theory, natural diuretics may help relieve water retention by making you urinate more. But there is little if any scientific evidence of their diuretic effects, so you may not find them effective. And if you're aiming for long-term weight loss, natural diuretics probably won't help.

You may be able to better manage water retention — especially if it's related to menstruation — through some simple lifestyle changes, such as cutting back on sodium.

If you're hoping to lose water weight as part of a weight-loss goal, focus instead on eating a healthier diet and getting plenty of exercise and activity — not taking diuretics. And always let your doctor know about any dietary or herbal supplements you take.

Rosemary Herb Benefits

Rosemary Herb Benefits:

Rosemary, scientifically known as Rosmarinus Officinalis, is an ancient herb known to have spiritual, culinary as well as medicinal uses. Initially a Mediterranean herb, it is now cultivated almost all across the world. It is a perennial plant available all throughout the year. Rosemary grows up to a height of 1.5 m to 3 m and can be grown even in your kitchen garden. All you need is well-drained alkaline soil, prevention from strong winds, and good sunny weather. It has dark green, needle like leaves and fragrant, light blue flowers that blossom in early summer.

Rosemary herb is a prime ingredient in several food items as well and its use has been known to preserve food for longer periods. Not only that, with its mint like flavor it enhances the taste of any food. Sprinkle some on your pasta or salad, or brush some on your grilled chicken. You may be using rosemary as just a flavor enhancer for your food, but unknowingly you are protecting yourself from several health-related problems and issues.

Health Benefits

Here's how the regular consumption of rosemary benefits you.

• Defense Against Cancer: Rosemary herb is rich in antioxidants that protect the human system from the impairment caused by free radicals. Human DNA is susceptible to damage by free radicals. If untreated, these can cause cancerous cells to multiply uncontrollably, thereby increasing the risk of cancer. In women, rosemary works as a natural remedy to prevent breast cancer by stimulating liver enzymes that control the estrogen hormone levels in the body.
• Prevents Cataract Formation: Consumption of rosemary in the form of tea or capsules has been believed to prevent the formation of cataract in the eyes. Though this effect is not backed by scientific research, one may still consume it to check for its benefits because this herb is rich in vitamin A that has antioxidant properties essential for good vision.
• Delays the Aging Process: Rosemary extract is known to protect skin cells that prevent age-related changes in skin such as wrinkles and the formation of dark spots. For this purpose, the essence of this herb can be used in face masks. The effect of stress and toxins on skin is also taken care of by rosemary, by safeguarding a protective protein known as HSP70.
• Increases Energy Levels and Optimism: Antioxidant properties of this herb have been found to eliminate harmful toxins from the liver by enhancing the production of detoxifying enzymes, thereby increasing energy levels in human beings. It can be said that it also flushes out all negativity caused by the collection of toxins in the body. Thus, this herb also enables quick recovery from any disease or dysfunction. When used in aromatherapy, rosemary works as a stimulant that rids the body of fatigue and cures depression. A cup of rosemary tea will also help you recover from a bad hangover.
• Memory Enhancement: This herb contains substances that prevent the breakdown of neurotransmitters in the brain and has therefore, traditionally been believed to be a natural memory enhancer as it enhances the function of the neurotransmitter acetylcholine that helps improve memory. It has been found that people who were exposed to rosemary fragrance have felt more alert and have shown marked improvements in the case of long-term memory. You may try this for yourself by getting a massage with rosemary oil or adding some of it to a bath. Even drinking rosemary tea will work to help memory in the long run. Carnosic Acid found in this herb has been found to lower the risk of developing Alzheimer's Disease.
• Prevents Water Retention: Rosemary herb works as a diuretic that accelerates the rate of urination and improves kidney function, thereby preventing water retention in the body that causes bloating. It is more effective than other tablets that control water retention because rosemary preserves essential minerals such as sodium, potassium, etc. that are necessary for the body, while tablets tend to flush out these as well.
• Helps Avoid Body Odor: Add a few sprigs of rosemary to your bath water, and it will help you rid the bacteria and fungus that cause body odor. It may also be used as a mouthwash by diluting some rosemary powder in water and gargling with it.
• Promotes Menstruation: For those of you who are facing a problem with delayed periods, consuming rosemary tea on a daily basis will help your cause. It is known that the herb has substances that induce cramps in the uterus thereby stimulating menstruation. Because of this very property, pregnant women should NOT consume rosemary in any manner.
• Digestive Benefits: It has the ability to heal several digestive problems such as constipation, stomach cramps and bloating. It is also an appetite stimulant. With its effect on the liver, it enables the release of bile, which aids digestion.
• Prevents Infections: Rosemary is rich in vitamin C. Upon consumption, it enables the body's immune system to become stronger and active. It prevents the growth of infectious agents, both, internal and external. So one may even say that it helps prevent the infamous common cold. Rosemary also has antiseptic properties. When added to bath water, rosemary will help wounds heal naturally and prevent the likeliness of an infection.
• Stimulates Blood Circulation: Being a rich source of iron, rosemary helps increase the oxygen carrying capacity of blood. Thus, blood circulation improves; and enhanced blood circulation itself is a cure for several problems such as skin disease, and memory loss.
• Improves Hair Shine and Cures Dandruff: The application of rosemary oil on hair stimulates hair follicles and circulation to the scalp. Even a hair rinse with water that has rosemary simmered in it for 30 minutes will work as a natural conditioner for the hair. This makes it strong and restores its lost shine and luster. Increased circulation to the scalp will also prevent dandruff and baldness.

It is important to note that one should limit the intake of this herb and consume or use it in moderate amounts as consumption of large amounts of rosemary can be poisonous. A dose of 5 grams of chopped leaves or leaf powder is normal. Do not consume concentrated rosemary oil. Always mix it with a carrier oil such as almond or olive oil before using it.

Apart from its culinary and medicinal uses, it is said that rosemary is also a plant of remembrance that symbolizes friendship and loyalty, and is therefore used at weddings and funerals. In ancient times, brides wore wreaths made of this plant as a symbol of fidelity. Rosemary flowers are used for decorative purposes, as well as for their fragrance. The herb is also an active essential oil used in aromatherapy.

All these bountiful benefits can help you rid yourself of many minor and major health problems. Use this miraculous herb and see the difference it makes to your overall health and well-being.

Disclaimer: This Buzzle article is for informational purposes only and does not intend to replace the advice of an expert. It is best to consult a qualified herbalist to learn more about the dosage and usage of this herb.

By Puja Lalwani
Last Updated: 8/19/2011

5 Foods To Remember For Better Memory | PickTheBrain | Motivation and Self Improvement

5 Foods To Remember For Better Memory | PickTheBrain | Motivation and Self Improvement:

Written by Vincent Kovar

The art of memory, or Ars Memorativa in the Latin, has fascinated us since…well, I can’t quite remember. From the ancient Greeks to early Christian monks, scholars have employed a number of mental techniques in training their minds to keep track of the burgeoning field of human knowledge. Nowadays however, there seem to be so many more things to keep track of. Not only is the overall amount of human knowledge growing at an exponential rate but each of us is expected to memorize a dizzying array of minutiae. From what floor our dentist office is on, to an average of seven passwords and PIN numbers per person, we use our memories more than ever before. It should come as no surprise however, that those clever ancients were willing to put their memory where their mouth was.

Here is a fistful of five foods for the memory which are both respected by science and revered by the ancients.

One: HERBS

One of the most famous memory-enhancing herbs is rosemary. The motto of the plant has long been “rosemary for remembrance” and now modern science knows why. Rosemary is rich in the anti-oxidant, carnosic acid which dilates the cerebral vascular tissues. Studies have shown that even the smell of rosemary can improve memory performance in office workers. Other herbs that may help memory include “the three Gs”: ginko, ginseng, and gotu kola. No one is sure how they work quite yet but we do know they stimulate the brain’s neurotransmitters.

Two: TEA

Another food with a long pedigree and which seems to have many benefits on the brain is usually served as a beverage, tea. About 5000 years ago the inventor and Chinese emperor Shen Nung discovered that the combination of a certain wild leaf in hot water produced an invigorating beverage. He called it “cha” from the Chinese word meaning “to investigate” a word which we now know as chai or tea. Tea’s benefits may spring from its healthy combination of anti-oxidants and caffeine. According to a study by the University of Limburg in the Netherlands, “the most important consequence of [caffeine’s] adenosine antagonism … might lead to improvement of higher cognitive functions, particularly memory.” The antioxidants in tea are called polyphenols which have repeatedly been shown to improve cognitive function and memory. Tea also contains a calming amino acid called theanine which helps reduce “the jitters” and keeps the mind relaxed and focused. Perhaps the best news is that tea has up to 10X the polyphenols found in foods like fruits and vegetables.

Three: FRUITS & VEGETABLES

Let’s not knock our friends, fruits and vegetables, however. Man cannot live (or learn) on herbs and tea alone, we need food.  The thing to remember about memory boosting foods is color. You want dark reds, blues and greens. Apples contain quercetin which protects against memory loss. Blueberries (and red beets) have another great anti-oxidant called anthocyanin which performs the same function. Red onions and grapes contain both. Combine red and blue and you get the purple of eggplant, a food rich in nasunin which protects the lipids in our brain tissue. Dark green vegetables like broccoli, spinach, brussels sprouts and romaine lettuce are high in folic acid which several studies have show to prevent and even reverse memory loss.

Four: FISH & NUTS

Sushi, anyone? The omega-3 fatty acids found in fish (and nuts) are great for the brain. Sea swimmers like mackerel, herring, eel and tuna are also chock full of phosphatidylserine. You don’t have to remember these fancy chemical names, just remember that these oils contain nutrients that are not made in the body, so it’s important to eat plenty.

Five: DESSERT

Honey is a delightful sweet that every culture in history has enjoyed. The sweet product made by bees from flower nectar has been used for thousands of years in food, medicine and even religion. Now, based on a study by the University of Waikato in New Zealand, honey might start being marketed as the next liquid gold for the brain. This research suggests that a diet sweetened with honey could both lower anxiety and improve memory. What an excellent excuse to not skip dessert.

It may not be entirely scientific to suggest, but a nice cup of tea and a slice of honey-soaked baklava (containing omega-3 rich nuts of course) might be the perfect pre-study snack after a healthy dinner.

Overall, it appears that a good memory might not just be the result of what you put in your eyes and ears but what you put in your mouth as well.

Vincent Kovar is a writer, instructor, editor, and entrepreneur based in Seattle, Washington. An Adjunct Faculty member at both Antioch University and the University of Phoenix, Vincent writes about online colleges for EarnMyDegree.com

Best Herbs for Women over 40 | The Dr. Oz Show

Best Herbs for Women over 40 | The Dr. Oz Show:

Rosemary

If you’ve noticed yourself sneezing or your joints beginning to stiffen, you may want to consider adding rosemary to your meals. It contains rosmarinic acid, an antioxidant that works with your immune system to block allergy triggers; it also helps to prevent arthritis. Combine rosemary leaves and essential oils with jojoba oil and oatmeal powder for a body balm to ease aches and pains.

Rosemary can help to eliminate bloating. Drinking 3 cups of rosemary iced tea daily helps to break up gas in the gut. Steep 1 tablespoon of dried herb in 3 cups of boiling water. Strain, add agave and cool.

You can also help to prevent cancer by using rosemary as you cook your meals. When you grill meat, chicken or seafood, carcinogenic compounds can form. These compounds are linked to stomach and colon cancer. The antioxidants in rosemary dramatically reduce the formation of cancer-causing compounds. Next time you're grilling, make a bed of rosemary and place the food on top.

This power herb can also help your memory. Rosemary arouses neurons that communicate with the hippocampus, allowing you to recall information more easily. In ancient Greece, medical students would wear rosemary garlands around their necks during exams.

Bipolar Disorder herbs, supplements, vitamins, natural treatment by Ray Sahelian, M.D. therapy with fish oils

Bipolar Disorder herbs, supplements, vitamins, natural treatment by Ray Sahelian, M.D. therapy with fish oils:


Bipolar medication treatment
A number of medications are available to treat bipolar disorder. The most common are mood stabilizers like lithium and anticonvulsant medications. Many people who have bipolar disorder keep taking these medications for years or decades after their last mood swing to stay healthy. This is called maintenance therapy. During a period of depression or mania, a person may need other medications, like antipsychotic drugs and sometimes antidepressants.


Bipolar medication and weight gain side effects
Obesity and weight gain in bipolar disorder patients are partly related to prescribed drugs with a strong effect by clozapine and olanzapine. Lesser but still relevant weight gain is caused by quetiapine, risperidone, lithium, valproate, gabapentin and by some antidepressants. Ziprasidone, aripiprazole, carbamazepine and lamotrigine do not seem to cause significant weight gain.


Adding carbamazepine to my lamotringuine dose might prove to be benefical: increasing mania  decrease and removing one more cause of weight gain.  Changing and eliminating meds was one of the things I did a decade ago, when I was actively working on losing weight.  All of the working out I did would have been for naught if my metabolism was still at a low state.


Bipolar symptom
Symptom of bipolar disorder are characterized by recurrent episodes of depression, mania, and/or mixed symptom states. These episodes cause unusual and extreme shifts in mood, energy, and behavior that interfere significantly with normal, healthy functioning.

Bipolar Disease Manic symptoms include:
* Increased energy
* Severe changes in mood, either extremely irritable or overly silly and elated
* Overly-inflated self-esteem; grandiosity
* Decreased need for sleep, ability to go with very little or no sleep for days without tiring
* Increased talking, talks too much, too fast; changes topics too quickly; cannot be interrupted
* Distractibility, attention moves constantly from one thing to the next
* Increased sexual desire or high libido, increased sexual thoughts, feelings, or behaviors; use of explicit sexual language
* Increased goal-directed activity or physical agitation
* Disregard of risk, excessive involvement in risky behaviors or activities


Because of item #6, I'm now wondering if I'm more manic than ADHD.  Strattera helps, however it may just as well help a manic with the same symptoms.  I have never understood 'overly-inflated self-esteem' or 'grandiosity'.  If anything, my self-esteem is pretty low, since I'm always concerned how others think of me due to making so many mistakes when I was younger and being picked on/criticized by my peers and my mother .  If it's referring to my thinking I'm often, if not usually, right about things, I can then understand that definition somewhat.  If I go by the following definition of grandiosity, then I'm still at a loss; I'm usually told this falls under pressure of speech, my talking all of the time.  Some of that is also what I would characterize as my 'thinking out loud', from my internal thinking processes not having developed completely, per Dr. Barkley.  [That in itself lends to the credence of ADHD being part of what makes me up].  What I don't understand is why 'pressure of speech' is defined separately within bipolar.  Isn't the 'rapid speaking' part of the manic itself?  I've done this all of my life (being manic all of my life) so it does not seem as much of an 'ailment' as it is defined to be..

Web definitions:

high-flown style; excessive use of verbal ornamentation; "the grandiosity of his prose"; "an excessive ornateness of... wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn Web definitions: Pressure of speech is a tendency to speak rapidly and frenziedly, as if motivated by an urgency not apparent to the listener. .... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pressure_of_speech

Bipolar Depression symptoms include:

* Loss of energy

* Persistent sad or irritable mood

* Loss of interest in activities once enjoyed

* Significant change in appetite or body weight

* Difficulty sleeping or oversleeping

* Physical agitation or slowing

* Feelings of worthlessness or inappropriate guilt

* Recurrent thoughts of death or suicide

New meds

With my new meds, for cholestrol and uric acid, plus the one for fungus that I will be taking for three months, I am supposed to refrain from drinking alcohol.  I'll probably still drink a bit on the weekends, however I plan to cut out drinking during the week.  There is, however, one problem with that: I use alcohol to calm me down, shore up my mental strength, relieve my anxieties, etc.  I might have to see about increasing my anxiety pill to once or twice a day, every day.  I also want to check into getting my Lithium increased.  I would like to get my mania decreased as much as possible, without if entirely going away.  I dream of the day that my legs will stop bouncing due to so much (mostly mental) excess energy stored up.  I can be completely calm, legs propped up and working on something that I actually like doing and I will find that my legs are bouncing.  It is beyond aggravating.

Yearly Physical

My cholesterol is still up, so I have to go back on the Crestor.  And, my uric acid is up, so I have to take a new med to ward that off, so that I don't get gout.    Between those and the fungal medicine will need to take for a few months, I will have to cut down on the alcohol I drink.  That means that I'm gonna have to up my anxiety pill to at least 2-3 times a day, since will not have alcohol on a daily basis to 'make me feel better', when I'm aggravated, pissed, upset, whatever.  I can't go on anything like Wellbutrin, since that slows down my metabolism.  I'm already having enough trouble working around the ones that I already take.  I can't take a handful of dietary supplements, like I did a decade ago.  I was a super hyper mess for two years straight to accomplish that.

The weekend

I got the dishes washed up in the kitchen.  It took a few loads.  I usually wait until the weekend to wash them.  It's been worse since the garbage disposal has not been fixed yet.  I got all of my clothes washed on Sunday.  And the covers targeted by the cats.  And, I worked on dismantling a sequin dress that I bought, just for the thousands of paillets sewn all over it, since I can use them for costumes.  I got a good chunk of it done Saturday and Sunday, leaving a piece that can be worked on over the next week.

This morning

I have moved my wake-up time down to 4:30.  I actually got up at 4:30 this morning, even though I could have slept in another half-hour.  I actually didn't think of that fact until I was in the shower.  I got out at 6:45, 15 minutes early.

I just had the most interesting thoughts.

I started out wondering if I could talk Duv into helping me with a weight loss/exercise plan.  I figured that he would ask as to why I could not do it myself, to which I was thinking that I don't have the motivation to do it by myself, even though I have the desire to see the thing done.  I was then left wondering if I was losing motivation as I was getting control (via meds) over the mania and inability to keep focus on one thing at a time.  Then the thought came to me that it's probably more of a matter of not knowing what to do -- not knowing how to apply the effort towards the motivation -- now that my mental circumstances have changed.  I think that 12 years ago, when I dropped my bipolar meds, and some BP meds, to not have them working against my losing weight, my being so focused on accomplishing that was more a matter of being hyper focused on it.  Then, when, at the same time, I was also try to both work on a writing project and learn a new programming language, I think that it was too much to hyper focus on, which is why I wound up choosing one of those two over the other.  I wonder if that equates to the difficulties in being 'in love' with numerous people at the same time (i.e. lust/infatuation): it's just too much to be overly focused on in one sitting.

So now, as I see it, the new difficulties lie in trying to learn to motivate myself under this new thinking pattern.  Since I have not spent years building up internal motivations (such as a man or woman working out numerous times a week to keep a certain weight), as opposed to external motivations (a woman wanting to lose 20lbs for a class reunion, or a man being told his bad health depended on the change).  Even a decade ago, it wound up happening with some sort of outside push.  With the weight loss, it was not a motivation to weigh less for the sake of being skinny.  [In those occasions, I usually got a script for Calan/Verapamil for my BP, replacing whatever else I was taking, however it didn't keep my pressure down low enough, or it had a side effect I didn't like; I forget which.  In other words, an easy way that didn't need any internal work.]  In this particular case, it was because I was having a difficult time accomplishing moves in my dance class.  I even know the exact situation that triggered me wanting to do it.  At that point, it pretty much became a hyper focus thing.  Once I started down that path, I had my ex waking me up for the first few weeks, until I built up the new habit and could do it myself.  With the programming language, it was with the (somewhat) immediate goal of utilizing it for my own uses, as opposed to taking classes as part of a long-term goal of a degree and possible new job.  At one time, I did do the latter, in the 80's, when I got my associates at a community college, and a now-defunct school that I attended before that.  [I do have to say that at those times, my jobs did not compete with the schooling, so it fairly easy -- except when it came to classes that I had no interest in or were ... not exactly difficult but were not easily picked up by me.  By 1990, when I was attending DeVry and had gotten to classes that were difficult/uninteresting, along with one despised speech class, newly married and putting in more hours at work to keep up, the first got dropped for the third.]  I have external motivations, such as wanting to learn new programming languages so that I can broaden the scope of assignments I get at work.  However, now I don't have the hyper focus driving me.  And since I don't have the internal motivations built up, I'm pretty much at a loss as to how to handle these situations.

And the reasons are ...

I believe that I drop everything to do something that comes to mind because:

• I'm impatient to see the thing done as opposed to waiting
• Giving in to the impulse to do said thing
• Knowing that if I write it down to do later, it might not get done because I am always in the middle of doing something else
• Trying to remember to do it later, sans writing it down, and then forgetting about it
• Writing it down to do later and then not looking at my notes where it was written
• Setting an alarm and then snoozing the alarm because I am in the middle of something else and didn't want to interrupt myself, which means that I wind up putting off, and never getting to, what I wanted to do in the first place.

I know that why I do this, I just wish that I didn't do it

I got wrapped up in creating, and then updating, a load list from my old SplashID data.  When I moved everything over from my old phone to my new one, that data file did not move over.  I've been trying to get Splash to dump the contents for over a year, so that I can load them into another app.  Now, with less than two weeks left before I had to send the old one off, it was either get it downloaded or type each into the other app one by one.  This became a big deal today because I needed to look up a password, and that triggered the events that eventually had me editing a list that was created last year that was sitting on my old phone.  Once I got started, I of course found it very difficult to pull away.  I really hate that I obsess over things.  Most of my morning has been spent working on something non-work related.

Will I ever be able to keep the light on all of the time?

Below is how you swiftly kill a little over two grand in a week’s time.  Over $350.00 of it was on totally irrelevant shit – eating out, shoes, lotto tickets!  – that absolutely did not need to be purchased in the past week.  And there are a couple of things on the list that Duv gave me that didn’t get touched.  As it is, I barely have enough to get the cats fixed tomorrow; no actually, I’m about three bucks short.  I can cover that with the money I get from doing the coffee supply run tonight, however I still need to cover the money that goes to my mother for the PACE luncheon ticket, and my layaway at the shop in Quinlan. 

 

Will I ever develop a dimmer switch?  I either can’t spend because I’m broke – which is off – or I try to acquire any and everything that pops into my head – or on.  I usually have some kind of list.  However, while I’m going through the already-created shopping list, I am at the same time shopping for other things that catch my fancy, because I have money in my pocket and can cater to those fanciful things then and there.    It’s very interesting how, in circumstances like these, I cannot hyper focus on the initial plans I had made and impatiently waited for, and not let eye candy deter me from the plans.  I’ll bet that if I had been able to make all of the purchases at one time – such as if my list of things to accomplish could all be purchased online within a matter of moments – I might have accomplished the initial purchase plan.  If I were to use the initial light switch analogy, then the following would probably apply:

·         Light switch off equates to no focused plans

·         Light switch on equates to focused goal has been planned and is probably underway

·         Light switch being dimmed would equate to not sustaining the impulse control to continue to ‘see’ the ‘goal’ clearly and not detour from the objective.

 

I can’t go the rest of my life having to have someone else carry out the game plan because I am – at this time – unable to sustain myself while the light ( i.e. goal/plan) is currently dimmed.  There have to be methods that can be used by a person to teach oneself to keep the goal bright enough in one’s mind so that eye candy will not deter one from the initial plans.  Telling someone that teaching oneself a method more than likely could not be done is unacceptable.  If I had an accountant taking care of my household bills and then giving me the spending money brings about the same risks: me not getting my list accomplished because I let some shiny get in my way and take all of my allocated money.  If I handled all of the bills myself, the same outcome would result: some shiny flashing in front of my eyes could/would derail my plans.

 

I believe that I understand Dr. Barkley’s supposition that because we abstracts too slowly develop the ‘looking back at the past history of bad decisions’ thing.  However, if even someone with short-term memory loss can conceivably have something transfer to long-term memory -- with lots and lots and lots of consecutive repetition – then it stands to reason that there has to be a way for an abstract to learn utilizing the same methods.  One problem that I see for myself is that I don’t have anyone that I could work that closely on achieving that mission. 

 

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Thinking Out Loud Early In The Morning

This morning, while I was getting ready to go to work, I found myself thinking out loud again.  I was in the middle of mentally writing something.  I think that 1) in situations like that, where I am thinking through what I am going to write or say, I do it out loud; and 2) if I do that early in the morning, I start out the day not only thinking out loud, but also having a higher manic state.

New plans

Yesterday, I got myself set up to engage in my new work/study plan.  I installed software to lock my PC for a certain period in the evening, so that I won't do too many things that I don't need to be doing instead of working or studying.  We'll see how it works.  Hopefully, it won't be too easy for me to go around it like I usually do.

Eggs

This weekend, I let myself get a dozen eggs, something I rarely do.  I've already had eggs two days in a row: a 4-egg chicken and cheese omelet on Monday and 4 sunny-side-up eggs yesterday.  I can never stop at just two eggs.  Three would probably be enough but I don't stop there either, not anymore.

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Thanks …

Monica P. Collins

http://dayofanadder.blogspot.com/   and   http://adhdcodersunite.blogspot.com/

A member of stiletto feminism...

'We are all here to do what we are all here to do.  I'm interested in ... the future ... and the only way to get there is together.' - The Oracle (Matrix Reloaded)

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From: Monica Collins

Sent: Monday, February 27, 2012 8:12 AM

To: Robert Duvc Morgan

I think that we really need to take couple's counseling.  I think we have passed the point of worrying about others knowing our business.  We shared our 'business' in front of a lot of strangers at Kroger yesterday, so much so that people got nervous enough to have a cop called (although I'm sure that your grabbing my t-shirt helped that along).  We have got to do this better or we may one day get to the point where cops have to be called because one of us has hurt or killed each other.  I know that you like to 'finish' a conversation/argument to its conclusion, however all that does is push us further and further into the argument, so much so that we wind up screaming at each other, and almost getting physical with each other.  We can't keep that up.  We should really go to our respective corners until each of us calms down enough to now yell at each other.  I get aggravated because you are talking harshly at me, as though only your way is the right way, making me feel like a child again; I raise my voice; you consider that yelling and start yelling back, which makes you angrier; and it continues to escalate.  We can't do this anymore, otherwise we will get to the point where we will hate each other.  And not come back from it.  If anything, both of us needs to take a couple on anxiety pills, then talk.

I really think that we have to do something that you really don't care for: seeing a nutritionist.  Before you say that you don't have the money for it, I will pay for it.  For the last few years, I have watched you have to reduce the foods that you can eat, almost to nothing.  I've also watched you go back and forth on what foods you can eat.  You'll say  that you just discovered that you are not supposed to be eating something.  Later on, you discover that it was actually ok to be eating said item.  You have done this numerous times.  Meanwhile, you are getting weaker because you 'supposedly' can only eat certain things.  It's time to get help with this.  You cannot, and should not, continue to do this all alone.

Thanks …

Monica P. Collins

http://dayofanadder.blogspot.com/   and   http://adhdcodersunite.blogspot.com/

A member of stiletto feminism...

'We are all here to do what we are all here to do.  I'm interested in ... the future ... and the only way to get there is together.' - The Oracle (Matrix Reloaded)

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