Physical attractiveness - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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People are usually attracted to people who look like them^[163] and they usually evaluate faces that exhibit features of their own ethnic or racial group as being more attractive.^[120]

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I find myself all gaga over a new guy at work, so I'm thinking about this subject again.

I am the exact opposite and have been for as long as I can remember. Actually, I should clarify that and say that I am attracted many other, non-black groups. I have very little attraction to my own group, the very same black people. I don't know if I was 'born this way' or it came about because of my mother's boyfriend.

I have always felt out-of-joint and uncomfortable around my kind. I gravitate towards the other group that I've been around the most in my life, whites, but I'm sure they (figuratively) don't know what to make of this black woman that for all intents and purposes, in a manner of speaking, acts more white than black. Duv has referred to me as the whitest black girl he's ever met.

Weird. This new guy is not gonna know what hit him. (big sigh) Oh well.

A need for protein

I have been craving eggs over the last week. I believe that I do that whenever I need more protein.

I can't stand this

When I sit so that my feet sit flat on the floor, my legs usually don't bounce. However, I usually wind up sitting on my toes, because it raises my thighs up so that they are not pressing into the chair. When I sit like that, my legs start to bounce. I think that over time, I have gotten used to my feet not sitting flat on the floor. I'm sitting straight right now and it almost feels uncomfortable and unnatural. I have an urge to sit the other way, to sit on my toes.

I also don't sit straight like that because with the size of my butt, there is maybe 4 inches between my back and the chair back. Really, my bottom half of my body is bigger than the top, known as a pear shape. I remember as a teenager, and occasionally after that, I mother would try to get me to sit back. Because that pretty much has me leaning back, it's not comfortable. At work, when I lean back, I also put my legs up under my desk. In that position, my legs don't bounce. After awhile, change positions back to a sitting position. And it goes back and forth like that all day long.

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Out of patience

I'm tired of my relationship. Again.

Birthday

I've had everyone calling, wishing me a happy birthday.

Very, very sleepy

I didn't get much sleep last night. Consequently, I have been drifting off all morning. I hate when this happens. I'll wake up when it's time to go home. Then I'll start this cycle all over again.

Early!

I got up before the alarm this morning. I unfortunately slept very lightly last night so I was awake. I left home at 5:43 and arrived at my desk at 6:15. It's been a long time since I was up early enough that the street lights were still blinking on that stretch of Irving Blvd, lol.

Of course, since I didn't get a lot of sleep, the car kept lulling me to sleep and I fought that the entire trip. I'm trying to keep my eyes open right now.

New meds

I've started a new med, the name of which I forget. I've been on it a week. I have another couple of weeks to go before I'm supposed to be able to see the effects. It's supposed to cause my mania to go down a bit. I'm hoping this will do it.

Strength / Courage

Strength is knowing I might lose the battle


Courage is being willing to lose

Haruki Murakami: Talent Is Nothing Without Focus and Endurance :: Articles :: The 99 Percent

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