Me

I will get a serious case of hyper-focus while I’m downloading ill-gotten music from Amazon. I will ignore having to go to the restroom, I will ignore thirst, I will ignore other things that I think of that I need to be doing instead of that, I will forgo trips downstairs that I should be doing instead of this, etc. This is ridiculous. And I know that I will return to the downloading instead of going to the restroom and going downstairs to drop off my reimbursement paperwork. Big sigh. And the fact that I literally pissed my pants last week has not slowed me down either. I really need to find a way to block myself from getting to Amazon and other sites that can wait until I get home for. All I can think about is getting free tracks, so I keep going in and downloading albums.



I wish that I could say that things were better years back when I didn’t have a PC connected to the world wide web, but I know they weren’t. The only real difference is that instead of hyper-focusing on something when I couldn’t focus on work, I found other things to temporarily focus on instead. I’d go to the store and look around, I’d go visit someone that I was interested in, etc. Lol, just about the only thing that I wouldn’t do is walk around the building, or take a lap around the track, or go to the gym and walk on a treadmill or lift some weights. Interesting.



The 2nd thing that I’m currently hyper-focusing on is going to the thrift store to look for clothes to buy for costumes. Ever since I start making costumes for dance, I’ve been very focused on it. I come up with all kinds of ideas for it. However, I don’t put the same effort into actually making a costume. I will put off a planned one until absolutely the last moment possible, then I have to rush to get it done. I want to have the costume done, and I want to make it myself, however the actual work puts me off. For one thing, sewing (and beadwork) is very labor intensive, and fairly boring at times. It’s interesting: I feel bored by a knitting project towards the end, but I think it’s more impatience. With sewing, it’s in the beginning, where I have to combine so many small parts into larger parts. With crocheting, it’s a combination of impatience and boredom back and forth throughout the project. I like crocheting, but it can be a bit slow for me.



I just realized that I did not eat lunch. I forgot all about it, sitting here, surfing.



Thanks ….



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